What do you see?

When I was younger, my mom would drag me into the bathroom..tears running down my face,make me look in the mirrors and tell me that I was beautiful . She then would make me repeat after her. At the time, it was annoying. If I was crying it was usually because someone had made me feel less than. But she always made a point to tell me I was beautiful, or loved even if no one else in the world did.

   Well Recently,I had one of those moments with God. I was having a random pity party asking God why this,and why that. Putting my self down,or excusing someone who was doing the same. Almost immediately it was as if God was holding me up In front of the mirror trying to show me who I really was,but instead of an actual mirror it was his word. His word told me i was beautiful,and then he made me repeat It. His word which showed the perfect reflection of who I was. His word showed everything that he said I was. His word showed me his promises. I felt like a kid again,being dragged into the mirror to declare who I was,even when I couldn't see it . 

    That's what God does with us. He will take our broken messiness,heartbreaks,insecurities etc and show us in his word how none of it matters. In his word I see what I will become even if I am not yet there. I see what kind of wife and mother I will be. I see the beauty that goes way beyond my appearance. I see the souls that will be brought to Christ because of his light shining thru me. I see the trials that I will rejoice in because it is giving God the glory. 

I live for these moments in my life. When I can humble myself before God so I can really see who I am and what my purpose is. It is in my weakness that I am truly strong. It is only in my ugliness that I am beautiful, and it is only in my lies that I hear the truth . The Lord responds to every negative thing I think about myself with a reminder of who he knows I am.