I was recently told that there is strength in being vulnerable, and honestly, that sounded like a nightmare to me.
“You mean I have to tell people how I am REALLY feeling?” followed by the next thought of “I’m good, love. No thanks”
I have always been good about being vulnerable and sharing my story with people I don’t know, or people who I can speak to and never talk to again afterward. But it hasn’t been such an easy task with people who I do life with and for a long time I just accepted the fact that maybe I wasn’t “built that way.”
There is a huge difference between loving yourself and being content with the things that need adjustment. I am learning that I can fully love all of me, but still be aware of the things inside or outside that I would like to change.
In the last few months, there has been such a huge awakening inside of me. One of those things that makes you so excited and terrified at the same time. Its like when you get a glimpse of what the freedom looks like and then you are reminded that it's going to take work, honest, and true vulnerability to get there.
I was also reminded of the importance of being vulnerable to the right people. Everyone doesn’t deserve to see your darkest moments and not everyone is going to speak the kind of life that you need into you. BUT this is no excuse to not have anyone to be vulnerable with. I have prayed for months that God would send or show me who I could “keep it real with”, and not just people who wanted to know the latest gossip or drama in my life.
Being vulnerable takes work yawl!
Some days I am completely over it and ready to fight the next battle or challenge on my own and then I remember that life isn’t supposed to be done alone, that the things we go through are not so foreign that there isn’t someone else who doesn’t understand it.
The enemy loves when we convince ourselves that we are some strange creature that has battles no one understands. He loves to isolate us and box us when we have people in our corner who would jump in and fight with us or on our behalf if we were just brave enough to let them in the ring with us.
You are not alone, I am not alone, and the quicker we decide that we are going to make sure we fight, work for, and earn the sisterhood that we deserve the sooner we will crush the enemy and become the force to be reckoned with that God sees us as.
