To say that that 2012 has been hard would be a complete understatement. My family, like many other families have gone thru life changing things this year. I find it amazing though, how in the midst of all the storms Gods presence was the one thing that never changed.
When I started off 2012 with my fast, I knew that it was going to be different, and like many people I was proclaiming that it was going to be "my year". I soon realized that even if I have my best year, it wont stop things from happening around me.
In February, my family and I watched my grandmother enter into eternity. I knew that things would never be the same, and not completely thinking in faith I imagined that it was going to be a pretty hard year full of us grieving..BUT GOD had other plans. He literally took a heartbreaking event and used it to restore my family..COMPLETELY.
In July,I watched my parents who had been separated seven years re-new their vows and get back together. It had honestly gotten to the point where I had stopped praying for them to reunite and I just started praying for there to be peace in my family. Them reuniting proved to me that not only do our prayers not go unheard but that God is always working behind the scenes whether we know whats going on or not. When God wants something to work out, he will make a way.
In August, I found myself in my own place with my sister. I know now what people mean when they say you are never truly an adult until you are not living with your parents anymore. You are forced to grow up and see life for what it really is and no longer have the protection of your parents to fall back on.
In October, after two years, I finished School of Ministry. Those weekly classes had literally been my backbone thru all the things I was going thru. Thru that school I learned how important a daily relationship with God is. It showed me my God calling, and that is something i will eternally be grateful for.
In 2012 I loved hard,cried often, made plenty of mistakes, I lost, I won, I gained, I ministered, I discipled, I mentored, I talked to much, and I talked to little. I fell short, I repented, I forgave, and most importantly I was forgiven. As I enter into 2013,the only thing I pray for is that God can continue to find something in me worth using. I want to give God glory in everything that I do, thru every choice that I make, and in every relationship that I have.
I pray that 2013 will be the comeback year for not only me, but the world as well. A lot of people have lost there identity in Christ, hints all the crazy things that have happened this year. Lets not make this year a repeat of the previous years. Even though I know that this up and coming year will be far from perfect I know that Gods love will outshine it all. I know that in this imperfect world I serve a perfect God, and with that knowledge there is no way that this New year can not contain an overflow of blessings in which we will not be able to contain.
